Polaroid

Learn to let go.

If he comes back, he truly sees no one else but you.

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Sebenarnya sebab-sebab saya boleh dan suka menulis dengan puitisnya tentang alam dan manusia, bagaimana saya kaitkan antara keduanya dan mencipta dunia virtual dan berseronok, bermain-main di dalamnya adalah kerana sebab yang saya baru saya sedari waktu kini.

Dahulu saya bersendiri, dan saya berkawan baik dengan alam.

Waktu-waktu saya sedih, kosong, bersemangat, puitis, berkecamuk, saya sentiasa lari ke sana - ke taman yang saya ciptakan sebagai taman kegemaran Maria. Dan saya sambungkan ke dua-dua dunia dan berseronok dengan apa yang ada. Dan saya telah terbiasa dengan ketiadaan. 

Begitu caranya saya hidup, bersendiri.

Says Murakami.

Dah lama tak balik bilik, bukak blogger, nak sampaikan apa ada dalam kepala.

"..I'm the type of person who doesn't find it painful to be alone."

But that was before you, my dear.

Now what am I suppose to do, sayang?

I have once being in a phase like this.

Daughter - Candles

The day that ends with positive vibes, will carry only positive energy till the very end of the day.

I am feeling okay.

Thanks, earth.

For being my best buddy.

Let's pull that out well.

It's time.

To get in shape, again.

I have been told that no happy man would write better than the sad ones.

James Morrison - Better Man

Kegilaan ini tidak akan pernah habis.

Kawalan dan berpijak di bumi nyata elemen mustahak yang perlu sentiasa diingati.

Kegilaan ini bukan sesuatu yang senang untuk kamu fahami, sayang.

Kegilaan ini melingkar sehingga mempersoal adakah kamu terjebak sekali dalam kegilaan ini 

atau

hanya aku yang gila dalam obsesi sendiri?
Tapi aku lega kamu tetap waras

Terlalu lama, sudah terlalu lama menjadi pemimpi

Aku ingin jadi realis.

Yang berpegang kepada kenyataan.

Lebih lagi, 

yang berpegang kepada rasional semata-mata.

Tidak akan ada siapa-siapa yang ambil serius gadis yang obses

Tapi 

Gadis yang bijak dan pandai mengawal diri.

Semuanya harus dilakukan dengan bijak.

Barulah kamu tampil matang, kan?

Replays.

I'm replaying all the time we went through together until we are what we are now. It takes a lot, yes. It takes courage, it takes one to strip all the walls surrounding it and walks bare, naked. Submitting self to the sea of fire, to the sea of pain, of grieving, of self discoveries, of tears, of being fallen and rising up again. Of losing one and gaining another. It does take a lot. We are truly submitting ourselves to the god of loves. It has been four years and still the day i met you seems like just yesterday. I have been too wicked and too long been fucked up to be thinking straight and pulling myself together when i met you. I have been miserable and pretty in a deep mess of state when you discovered me. Through your patience, what once seems like just friends now become our love. Just out of your name and being my heart can compose thousands of songs, thousands of them altogether bouncing and jamming my chest whenever i look at you. Whenever I'm listening to you telling me stories. Whenever you are mad at me. I have been blessed to have you and your love. Really. To strip down these walls has taken me to be swallowed completely and.. thanks to that i am reborn. Here, cheers to me walking ahead to a better self. To our, better future.