Laluan Memori; Tentang Books on Books.

Ada kerinduan yang berbisik jauh dari dalam lubuk hati; ada masa-masanya aku rindukan kesunyian tenggelam dalam helaian-helaian kertas sedang aku duduk membungkam, tenggelam dalam perasaan, ketika aku ingin lari dari kesunyian dalam penantian.

Ada masa-masanya aku terbau-bau helaian kertas buku-buku yang pernah aku baca, secara rawak, secara tiba-tiba. Semasa kesunyian adalah teman paling rapat aku. Mungkin, sekadar mengingatkan tentang nikmat adanya kamu, sekarang.

Lamunan #2

Ada puisi aku yang berlarian dalam kepala saat kesibukan mengejar, mengekor, langsung tidak bersimpati pada kita yang hanya mampu mencuri nasib dalam kesempatan, antara selang selang masa yang ada. Kerinduan yang menggunung seiring hela nafas tidak tertancap dengan kata-kata. Apakan lagi yang harus kita buat, sayang?

Lamunan #1

Berhadapan dengan komputer dan laptop sebiji, tak termasuk di meja sebelah yang tinggal menunggu untuk dibaiki, saya duduk, hanya memandang kosong ke hadapan. Dengan sekali sekala angin dari kipas yang menyapa, ingatan kepada kamu berlarian selari dengan nafas saya.

Dari kejauhan, saya memegang awak dengan minda saya. Awak tak tahu betapa rindunya saya.

muhibbah spirit.

it was 1999 I think, the first time I heard about Wawasan 2020.
it was futuristic, with flying cars and flying skateboards.
and the Ah Chong, Raju and Ali will live happily and peacefully.
said Puan Rohayu, my bahasa teacher, quoting the then Datuk Seri Dr Mahathir Mohamad.
when she tell us to write about Bangsa Malaysia and Wawasan 2020.
to be exact when I asked too many questions about those visions of our 4th PM.
I always asked too many questions when I was a kid.
I stopped asking when I started to think about the questions myself.
Puan Rohayu gave us a lot of homework especially if it's Raya Holiday.
never heard of her at all after I moved to Rawang in 2000.
in fact I never heard of any of my schoolmates of SKSHAS class of 1997.

anyways.

back then in school we had a game
played during recess called pepsi cola.
i think most of us knew this game
of course until today it's a mystery why the game is called pepsi cola.

pepsi cola is basically a game where we try to step other's white chalked bata shoes
with one try. and after the try, you cannot move your leg. but if you stepped a person's shoes, you can continue try again to another person.

i have a friend, vinodh is his name.
he's a rich boy and i find him quite intimidating eventhough he's friendly.
i think it's because of his height.
and because of that, too he's a heck of a 'pepsi cola' player.

lim kar seng was another regular player in my class.
he's a veteren with a quick feet despite having quite big stature.
then again, everyone is tall for me during my school days.
damn.

and then there's me.
small, yet i have a great advantage,
my shoes are black. a very important aspect to the game,
because my mom won't find out my shoes are dirty.
then again shes always busy with her works it's impossible for her to notice my shoes pun.

we always step on each other shoes, happily.
most importantly what i want to say is we all had fun playing 'pepsi cola'.
i guess that is what bangsa Malaysia, and 1 Malaysia (what they call now) is all about.

stepping on each other without reasons and call it fun.

well. it was.. until the bell rings.

Saya tak boleh tidur. #1

some people that i've met said i'm extra-ordinary. i'm not a psychic. i can assure you, i'm plain as fuck. just the same guy who'll bump your shoulder when we were trying to get out of the human traffic jam inside a shopping mall.

i just think. yes, to think, is easy. even a small kid can produce thoughts. it's just whatever the small kid produce might have been ridiculous, that's all. what i'm doing is learning how to think. learning how to think, is what will produce skeleton to a thoughts. the skeleton or in a simpler word, a structure is what will shape your thought, and without that structure you as an amalgamation of thoughts can be just shapeless.

people answer questions when they think. and sometimes you can read them from the way they answer questions. you can try to argue with them, i'll ask questions for example. and someone who gives an answer without a structure will eventually lost inside his own points. 

but there's a difference between reading and judging. read, don't judge. because you're not perfect either.

oh, my first post here and it's a serious post. ya tuhan..

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Cheers to 3 years of awesomeness and togetherness.